Still here...

I can't break up with her. I'm still in Canada. I send my application to extend my visa and the haven't answer yet. I'm waiting and waiting... What else can I do?
Anyway, If they say "yes" I may can get a work permit. I really wanna pay taxes and be a good "citizen", I wanna make things the right way. I came here to make a life, a better life.
But if they say no... I just donno what to do next... go back home is not a choice. I don't wanna go there defeated, nobody's chasing me, is just I think this is my place.
Today was a lazy day. I didn't take a shower, eat or get off bed... my back hurts... lol.