Back home.

Well, I'm back at home, not my mom's hometown but one of the biggest city in this side of the world. I left Canada almost a week ago.
I hope I can go back to Canada, I feel so weird here, I think this is not my place...
One day my application for restoration of my visitor status was rejected and now I'm here, waiting for my friend to pick me up to go out and drink a beer... even if I feel like I'm getting a little bit sick, I really wanna go out, just need fresh air.
Last night I refused to have sex with a girl... just lied to her, I said I didn't have condoms but I had, maybe I was not in the mood. Maybe next time I won't refuse her, maybe I will say one more lie.
Waiting, waiting and waiting. That's all I do.
Today I took a wrong direction on the subway. Twice. My head is just not here...

An elephant.

When I was about 5 years old, my mom couldn't afford a spring costume for me, my teacher was making one and I tough it was for me. I was wrong.
Sometimes I still want that costume, sometimes still want something happen to me, like magic, just want something come up and changes my life.
I was dating to this girl (who I will call S), we were boyfriend and girlfriend for about 3 days, then, somethings happen, things she didn't like about me, and I think, things I didn't like about her. Then she asked me for some time to think about our relationship, we were "dating friends". Then, some other things happen... one day, she came to me to talk, was early morning, we were on brake time in our job, and she told me she realized she just feel me as a friend, and that she had a new boyfriend: her ex best friend (a coworker too).
Last week was my birthday, some friends took me to Tobermory, Sauble Beach and many other places. Last week was my coworker's birthday too so I invited her, her friend, S, her boyfriend and to another friend. In the end, only my coworker and her friend came. It was a good night, some beers and lots of food.
S is so pretty, she is beautiful, and also she is a nice girl... But I'm tired, I've lost count of how many times, for one reason or another we make planes (now we are friends) and something happen and she cancels every single time, maybe this is the way things have to happen, maybe it's better this way...
So I'm not searching for a new girlfriend, but anyway I would like if a nice girl knocks my door and says 'hi'.
All I need is love (and beer)...

Breaking news.

Well, I donno why I'm here when I have to set up my back pack. 1. Broke up with my girlfriend last week. 2. Sent e-mail to immigration, they don't answer yet, but everything goes just fine. 3. Dating someone else. 4. Heat wave is just crazy, I can barely think. 5. Little sad because of my ex. 6. So happy coz I really like this girl I'm dating. Well, that's all for now.

Alone.

First: No answer of government, so I'm still waiting... What else can I do? Second: I'm home alone, she went to vacations this week. Third: I'm starving... Fourth: It's so hot and humid this days, I can barely think. Fifth: I would like to know how many words do I say per day... I'm a silence guy. I like the feeling of no words coming out of my mouth.

Long weekend.

So here I am, Saturday, 3:10pm.
For breakfast, I just ate tea and cookies. Some chips for lunch.
She's bleeding and I'm happy. That means she's not pregnant. As usual, she's sleeping.
Yesterday we went to College st. to celebrate her last day of job. Her work permit is over.
I want a bike so hard. In College st. I watched some abandoned bikes. Is it illegal to take one? I want an abandoned one. I'll tune it up and ride it with proud. The problem for me is to brake off the chain or open the lock.
I need a project.